Step into change, fear and all

I knew a radical change was necessary and had known it for 3 years. I was drowning in that relationship. I was barely alive, moving through my days feeling unworthy, lifeless, numb but too scared to leave. The unknown terrified me. I believed the voices in my head saying "You have been together for 18 years, it's too late, you're 52, you can't start over." The fear kept me frozen, unable to fight for myself and my dreams.

Yet, through this exasperating time, I never lost touch with my soul. It was the force that gave me hope. Countless times, through endless tears, I said, "Dear soul, give me the courage to find joy, pursue my dreams and fulfill my purpose on earth”.

It listened - souls always do -  and it orchestrated a situation where I couldn’t run anymore. The courage to say ‘enough’ filled my whole being, the fear vanished, I felt clear, calm, alive and free. A freedom only a once-caged heart can feel. I will never forget that moment.

That surge of aliveness fueled me through the months ahead as I navigated terror and liberation. I left our once home, arrived in a foreign country I'd only visited once, and fully embraced my career passion. Every time despair hit - and it hit often- I dropped into my heart and whispered "I am not crazy. I am strong. I am following my heart. Breathe." And each time, fear dissolved in my soul’s embrace. I held on. I didn’t listen to those who said I had lost my mind. I kept fiercely following my heart, dancing between despair and trust.

And now, 2 years in, I feel strong, empowered, and deeply alive. What was once hope is now certainty - I can change and create anything I set my heart to. And I am not doing it alone. My soul is ever-present, pushing me forward. I just need to get my human fears out of the way, every single day, over and over again.

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Dear human soul, I hope this inspires you to fight for yourself. You don’t need to see the whole path ahead, we never will. You just need to take the first step, and the next, and never lose touch with your soul. All it wants is to see you thriving.